Mental health check-in

Just came back from London on Friday. Found the place where of course not everyone is friendly, but the chance that someone will reciprocate your kindness and go out of the way to wish you a lovely day is much higher than my current area.

It did my soul much better than I ever expected. Hanging out with my all time best buddy helped a lot as well. And cribbage, cribbage helped.
 
So inspection week is almost done.

I've now written at least 5 ranty posts about the process/ quango then deleted because it wouldn't be professional or appropriate.

We're good. Fuck the system.
 
Pardon the language on my previous post but I've just come across a very timely and pertinent article given there's been not a huge amount of classroom observations (aka the nuts and bolts, "what we do", how we improve outcomes for our young people) but tonnes of audits, discussions and comments about how we track wider, some would argue meaningless, data. https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cm2xr243eryo

We had an 18 year old kid whose been with us for 3 years speak for the first time yesterday - "pizza" pretty good word to start with imo, staff literally cried, management team around called away to get the shit kicked out of us and then 10 minutes later you go into a meeting and some person with a clipboard who's not been in a classroom for over a decade wants to know what data you've got to prove x, y and z about stuff that is a million miles from teaching and learning and is for their benefit / report, not ours or our kids.

I'm still quite new to senior management so maybe a bit more naive or full of piss and vinegar but I went all in on this process and, even if our report ends up better then I think it will be, I've been really unimpressed with the experience which I suppose talks to the article - the majority of what's being scrutinized, unpicked and likely added to post report revolves around bureaucracy and not how we can tangibly improve what we do day to day for the kids, of which there are definitely stuff we're aware of but they've not, to my mind anyway, picked up


Anyways I've absolutely nailed my curry for today's staff pot luck, the entire process will be over in about 26 hours time and I'm going to see one of my favourite bands tomorrow night with the wife and stay over down the coast so all is good, life is beautiful.
 
baimun said:
This is why I'm the "Roy Kent" of my fuckin' family. :helper:
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I can be.

But more to the mental health thing, sometimes it feels very good to let my anger and frustration out in a Roy Kent style vent, whether or not my language has quite as many F bombs. BUT, then frequently, I end up feeling bad because some family member or friend might be offended, or then be upset because I dumped on them. So, in my counseling, I am still figuring out the balance as between properly experiencing anger and/or what is underneath, and processing it in a way that is ultimately productive, rather than a sudden pressure release that somehow keeps the bad energy flowing. I don't have my answer for that yet.
 
The good woman in my profile pic helps support my mental health and stability and happiness so very much! I do my own work, of course, but it just is nice to be loved and love back. Closing in on two years.
 
So I take back nothing of my previous posts but our inspection went well it turns out. Better than we were expecting given things the inspectors were picking up and drilling down on.

I dont generally stress, sometimes I feel I actually need to stress more but last week was tough the culmination of 3-4 months of absolutely bursting my pan.

Myself and the other 2 colleagues within my team got a special mention for our influence and impact across the board and the boss is considering appealing the quality indicator I was responsible for as she feels the grading should potentially be even better than it already is based on the evidence I gathered.

Pressure released. Much booze was drunk at my gig last night. :thu:
 
Lerxst said:
Work has been pretty darn stressful with a big series of layoffs announced prior to the holidays last year. Finally got word today that my job is secure but damn, 3 and a half months of speculation and watching friends get laid off takes a toll. (I've got well over a decade in with publicly held fortune 500 companies so this wasn't my first rodeo. Shit gets old)
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And a little over a year later, I've survived another round of RIF and just got word I'm safe.
Lost a lot of friends and good folks that I interact w/ on the regular this time. This one is going to really put the squeeze on our groups in my area. It's hard to be glad about much other than a paycheck today.
 
I didn't say anything before, but back in March I got the results from a pelvic biopsy that showed two prostate lesions with a score of five (A PI-RADS 5 score indicates a very high suspicion of clinically significant prostate cancer on an MRI). I basically had to sit on this for two months while waiting for a biopsy. I was pretty convinced I had it because three of five members of my nuclear family died of cancer and my only remaining member had cancer back in 2020, so I figured it was my turn.

Because I have Myasthenia Gravis the antibiotics normally given prior to a prostate biopsy are contraindicated so I got to be the guinea pig for a newer procedure - a "transperineal" biopsy. You don't want to know... At any rate, I had that procedure at the end of May and then waited a couple days for the results. I was really relieved that of twelve samples taken, 11 were benign and one was something they call ASAP which is not an indication of cancer.

I'm still recovering a bit from the procedure but am pretty much all back to normal and very relieved...
 
bsman said:
I didn't say anything before, but back in March I got the results from a pelvic biopsy that showed two prostate lesions with a score of five (A PI-RADS 5 score indicates a very high suspicion of clinically significant prostate cancer on an MRI). I basically had to sit on this for two months while waiting for a biopsy. I was pretty convinced I had it because three of five members of my nuclear family died of cancer and my only remaining member had cancer back in 2020, so I figured it was my turn.

Because I have Myasthenia Gravis the antibiotics normally given prior to a prostate biopsy are contraindicated so I got to be the guinea pig for a newer procedure - a "transperineal" biopsy. You don't want to know... At any rate, I had that procedure at the end of May and then waited a couple days for the results. I was really relieved that of twelve samples taken, 11 were benign and one was something they call ASAP which is not an indication of cancer.

I'm still recovering a bit from the procedure but am pretty much all back to normal and very relieved...
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That sounds like some good news after a lot of anxiety.
 
bsman said:
I didn't say anything before, but back in March I got the results from a pelvic biopsy that showed two prostate lesions with a score of five (A PI-RADS 5 score indicates a very high suspicion of clinically significant prostate cancer on an MRI). I basically had to sit on this for two months while waiting for a biopsy. I was pretty convinced I had it because three of five members of my nuclear family died of cancer and my only remaining member had cancer back in 2020, so I figured it was my turn.

Because I have Myasthenia Gravis the antibiotics normally given prior to a prostate biopsy are contraindicated so I got to be the guinea pig for a newer procedure - a "transperineal" biopsy. You don't want to know... At any rate, I had that procedure at the end of May and then waited a couple days for the results. I was really relieved that of twelve samples taken, 11 were benign and one was something they call ASAP which is not an indication of cancer.

I'm still recovering a bit from the procedure but am pretty much all back to normal and very relieved...
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That is awesome news considering what it could’ve been.

One of my closest friends just had that procedure Friday. He still hasn’t had any word.. He’s climbing the fucking walls waiting for news. They promised to call him Monday morning. Like you, he’s been mulling his fate for months now.

Godspeed on the recovery from that procedure.
 
bsman said:
I didn't say anything before, but back in March I got the results from a pelvic biopsy that showed two prostate lesions with a score of five (A PI-RADS 5 score indicates a very high suspicion of clinically significant prostate cancer on an MRI). I basically had to sit on this for two months while waiting for a biopsy. I was pretty convinced I had it because three of five members of my nuclear family died of cancer and my only remaining member had cancer back in 2020, so I figured it was my turn.

Because I have Myasthenia Gravis the antibiotics normally given prior to a prostate biopsy are contraindicated so I got to be the guinea pig for a newer procedure - a "transperineal" biopsy. You don't want to know... At any rate, I had that procedure at the end of May and then waited a couple days for the results. I was really relieved that of twelve samples taken, 11 were benign and one was something they call ASAP which is not an indication of cancer.

I'm still recovering a bit from the procedure but am pretty much all back to normal and very relieved...
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This all sounds very familiar. Although I ended up not having a transperineal biopsy, I well know what it entails. No pun intended. Also ASAP, which I'm sure they'll continue to watch via PSA tests. Glad to hear your results are clear!
 
Dudeman1967 said:
That is awesome news considering what it could’ve been.

One of my closest friends just had that procedure Friday. He still hasn’t had any word.. He’s climbing the fucking walls waiting for news. They promised to call him Monday morning. Like you, he’s been mulling his fate for months now.

Godspeed on the recovery from that procedure.
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Just found out my friends tumor was benign. Amazingly good news.
 
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