Mental health check-in

Just came back from London on Friday. Found the place where of course not everyone is friendly, but the chance that someone will reciprocate your kindness and go out of the way to wish you a lovely day is much higher than my current area.

It did my soul much better than I ever expected. Hanging out with my all time best buddy helped a lot as well. And cribbage, cribbage helped.
 
So inspection week is almost done.

I've now written at least 5 ranty posts about the process/ quango then deleted because it wouldn't be professional or appropriate.

We're good. Fuck the system.
 
Pardon the language on my previous post but I've just come across a very timely and pertinent article given there's been not a huge amount of classroom observations (aka the nuts and bolts, "what we do", how we improve outcomes for our young people) but tonnes of audits, discussions and comments about how we track wider, some would argue meaningless, data. https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cm2xr243eryo

We had an 18 year old kid whose been with us for 3 years speak for the first time yesterday - "pizza" pretty good word to start with imo, staff literally cried, management team around called away to get the shit kicked out of us and then 10 minutes later you go into a meeting and some person with a clipboard who's not been in a classroom for over a decade wants to know what data you've got to prove x, y and z about stuff that is a million miles from teaching and learning and is for their benefit / report, not ours or our kids.

I'm still quite new to senior management so maybe a bit more naive or full of piss and vinegar but I went all in on this process and, even if our report ends up better then I think it will be, I've been really unimpressed with the experience which I suppose talks to the article - the majority of what's being scrutinized, unpicked and likely added to post report revolves around bureaucracy and not how we can tangibly improve what we do day to day for the kids, of which there are definitely stuff we're aware of but they've not, to my mind anyway, picked up


Anyways I've absolutely nailed my curry for today's staff pot luck, the entire process will be over in about 26 hours time and I'm going to see one of my favourite bands tomorrow night with the wife and stay over down the coast so all is good, life is beautiful.
 
baimun said:
This is why I'm the "Roy Kent" of my fuckin' family. :helper:
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I can be.

But more to the mental health thing, sometimes it feels very good to let my anger and frustration out in a Roy Kent style vent, whether or not my language has quite as many F bombs. BUT, then frequently, I end up feeling bad because some family member or friend might be offended, or then be upset because I dumped on them. So, in my counseling, I am still figuring out the balance as between properly experiencing anger and/or what is underneath, and processing it in a way that is ultimately productive, rather than a sudden pressure release that somehow keeps the bad energy flowing. I don't have my answer for that yet.
 
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